To Vicki Askham with respect

This is to Vicki with respect,

From a man you may not expect

Since the year 2007, 23^rd of February,

Your name has stuck to my mind and diary.

I and Sheida think of you every day,

Dawn, sunset and while we pray

30 months ago you filled us with happiness,

Asking us to send you our Medical and PCC

I told Sheida make up your mind and get ready,

Our visa soon will be here, you’re gonna see.

Since then, we replied to your requests

Hoping these procedures end soon

Preparing ourselves to resettle in Australia

Breathe the freedom while we stare at the moon

 I made a good friendship

With Australia former ambassador

He told me not to be worry finding a job

He will definitely open a door

I also asked the Kuwaiti ambassador to transfer me

 To Canberra, Kuwait embassy

Securing my job and profession

Completing the immigration fantasy  

He assured me and just wanted to let him know

The date I exactly leave Tehran and go

Vicki, we have sent all the documents you need

To obtain the visa with succeed

I believe we have waited long enough

So please if it’s ok with you

Take a look once again at our file

And make our dreams come true

I appreciate the time you’ve spent

To read this poem that I have sent

I am not Kenny Rogers, Phil Collins or Yani

I’ m an ordinary man, abdulreza Hamedani

To my special friend

This is to a special friend of mine 

Your birthday filled me with happiness 

I believe you are the Lord's sign 

To show us love and tenderness 

I wish you many years of joy and laughter 

With eternal health and pleasures 

Earthy gifts are not enough 

I wish you the skies best treasures 

How I wanted to be close to you today 

But unfortunately I am far apart 

Although it is enough for me 

To have a little space in your heart 

 

Shahdad     14/12/1387

Then I’m not me

If you didn’t return with a heart

full of love and passion

If you didn’t ask for another start

full of enthusiasm and attraction

If you didn’t swear a second pass by

Like a year without me

If you didn’t say heaven is in your arms

It is the best place I want to be

                   Then I’m not me

If you didn’t accept your

Tenderness originated from mine

If you didn’t confess since you’ve been gone

You have never felt comfortable and fine

If you didn’t regret the days

You shut the door and moved away

If you didn’t pay the price of

Suffers I’ve been through every day

                  Then I’m not me

I’m not sure patience heals me or revenge

There is a battle inside me so weird and strange

But I just wanted to let you know

You made me yours from the first hello.

 

Shahdad Hamedani

January 2009

 

Angel

Pressure and pain in my soul and bone

Trying hopelessly to get blood from a stone

It's miserable to have this kind of life

When you live on the edge of a knife

But I found an angel in our city

She is so tender, clever and pretty

Heaven has sent her to this place

To put smile on our face

The way she behaves and takes care

Leaves no choice but to love her

Her velvet fondle makes me calm inside

And able to encounter harshest tide

To reach her, some men run in a circle

Some men go mad and insane

Some try their best 24/7

But only one man can dance in rain

Angel, even though someday

 I'm obliged to say goodbye

Be sure, No matter where I go

 Or how far I fly

I will love and adore you

Until the day I die

 

Shahdad Hamedani

 

January 2009

Spiritual fall

Depressed of my past

Worried about future

Is this my problem

Or it’s just a human nature

Have you ever dreamed to fly

Picking a star for the one you adore

To prove your love is not a lie

Have you ever missed someone so much

But whenever you needed her

She is just out of your reach and touch

Have you ever felt foods lost their taste

Because your love is not around

And wished these hours end fast and haste

Have you ever heard of spiritual fall

When everything goes wrong

Just like the Berlin Wall

So if you still trust in me

Please memorize what I say

Life is not the amount of breath you take

It’s the moments that took your breath away

 

Shahdad Hamedani

January 2009

Loneliness

I think it's cool to be alone

And keep my heart as cold as a stone

Does anyone Love me for who I am

Oh I don't care, don't give a damn

I just shriek in my heart, when I am out of sight

I know no one is there to hug me so tight

Loneliness is a close friend of mine

Nothing but silence can cross my line

No matter what’s gonna happen

I won't give up my free spirit

I've fought hard and paid the price

To live in peace, bearing no limit

I gotta count on myself to ease this pain

And stand on my feet once again

 

Shahdad Hamedani

Fall 2008

This life

Where are our freedom and our right?

Who is gonna guide us toward a light?

From the day of birth

Till we go back underneath the earth

We put so many masks on our face

Weave truth and lies to promote from our place

We don’t want our secrets to be found

And sometimes wish to stop the world going around

But there must be a record of us some where

None of us can change it, even if we dare

So who you call yourselves Gods of earth

But savagely destroy hopes, lives and wealth

Some day you'll be punished, it’s a complete fare

Be sure we are pursuing you just like a nightmare

 

Shahdad Hamedani

Fall 2008

Your Heart

 You wake up every dawn

Throwing your heart down on the floor

Never care where you step

While you walking out the door

You die to prove you are the best to all

Believe me even angels might fall

In your mind there is a space for having fun

 Maybe you share it with someone

 But no one can pass that door

Are you afraid of being stabbed once more

In this shattered world you act so strong and tough,

But inside you tenderness lies and that's enough

Your heart is deep like an ocean

Full of love and devotion

 So please don't ignore what I'm telling you

Even though it's rough but it's still true

 What ever you do, how hard you try

No one's safe from a sad goodbye

 

Shahdad Hamedani

Fall 2008

Success

 

No more I’m scared, no more I cry

That’s the only way, get ready and try

 No more I delay, no more I shed tears

 I’ll make up my mind and put down my fears 

No more I hesitate, no more I pause

That’s the only cure, I’ll create the cause 

We shall be succeeded, I shall be so 

I promise you, its time for us to go

  

Shahdad Hamedani

 

Fall 1994                                             

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